Moving from teaching at the high school level to teaching at University is in many ways very daunting. Do I really know my stuff well enough to try and help guide trainees to become good teachers? Do I know all my theory and academic theories and terminology well enough? I feel like I'm still learning a great deal about all this stuff as I undertake my Masters.
But don't you know all that from your own teacher training Brad? Well yes and no! The year of my post graduate diploma was turbulent, with the success of good practicums and academic results mixed against the background of a marriage that broke down dramatically over the course of that year (now about 10 years past). At the time I think I held things together pretty well with my study despite the personal traumas, however there were many days that I needed to take time out from study and lectures just to try and deal with the personal crisis that was happening. Pedagogy lectures were perhaps some of the most poorly delivered (read boring) and so it was often those that I opted out of when I needed some time. Subsequently today I feel there are some gaps in my knowledge and theoretical understandings, which I'm now trying to address through my study and own professional reading.
In the meantime though I have taught for about 10 years and think it would be fair to say that I have been a reasonably good classroom teacher. Not necessarily brilliant, at times just surviving and at other times helping students learn some fairly creative stuff, and having reasonably good relationships with most students. The parts of teaching that I enjoyed most were helping students to develop their creative skills with multimedia and seeing them produce some great work, the downside was trying to drag other students through a course that they were not really interested in, they were just there to fill up their timetables because they were not allowed to have free periods. Unfortunately that latter began to wear down my enthusiasm for high school teaching over the last few years, as well as my perceived decline in student behaviour generally within the school environment.
Stepping out of the classroom, taking leave without pay to look after my young daughter, actually gave me the chance to develop professionally and become aware of many new developments in my field, Information Technology, particularly Read/Write web (Web 2.0). At the same time I began working on my Masters and started to develop my understanding of Educational Theory, in particular getting my head around post-modernism and having some of my points of view challenged and change as I considered and assimilated points of view that I'd previously known little about. This is a journey I'm still on and am acutely aware of the gaps in my understandings, which I want to improve on.
In the day-to-day reality of teaching in a high school, planning lessons, marking assessments, purchasing resources, trying to work collaboratively with colleagues; there is often little time for truly deep reflection of the theoretical level. Usually the deepest you have time to go is making sure that you have a logically constructed programme for the year that will ensure that students learn all the required skills and content and complete the mandated assessments in the given time. Along the way you try to improve and tweak learning activities form the previous year or to suit the particular group you are working with. Managing students and trying to keep up their interest and motivation takes up a lot of professional time.
So against the above backdrop, sorry about the ramble, I now find myself here trying to effectively help first year teaching trainees come into the profession. I am nervous and optimistic about my role in this. Optimistic because I really do have a passion to help teachers in their work, particularly in the area of ICT integration. I believe that effective use of ICT tools, in particular Web2.0, can help teachers to engage students in learning activities that have a real audience and are then likely to be more engaging for them. I'm also interested to be doing more work that involves examination of learning theory and its practical application in the classroom. Having to focus on this in my teaching will also help me develop my understandings and revisit my own classroom practices. The most driving part of this is to do the reading that the students are doing, making sure I have a sound knowledge of the theory and being able to assist the students in their understandings. At times it seems to be a case of demystifying the academic terminology and relating it back to my teaching experience, looking for the real-life experiences that I can anchor to what the theory is saying. There have been times when I know my teaching practice has not been good by the standards of what we promote with students and in the theory, and there are as many times when my teaching would get close to reaching the ideals we strive for.
About half an hour before my first Education lecture this week I was very nervous, however as I got up in front of the class, I felt less so. Maybe it was like riding a bicycle; I did really know what to do. I think the thing about teaching here is that I will be examining my delivery even more, because I want to model good teaching practices. Fortunately I am just so well supported by the lesson plans and resources that the unit coordinator, Jill, is putting together, I certainly do not have much pressure with regard to preparation from that aspect. Which is great, it gives me time to get my head around the material to be covered and make sure that my own understandings are sound for when I have to deliver to my students.
I have enjoyed the initial interaction with the students and certainly view teaching them from the aspect of assisting their learning but also my own, hopefully I become a better teacher along the way as well as developing my own academic understandings of the field of Education.